My Encouragement!!

Thursday, March 22, 2018

Wage A War

I feel you,
Presence carved into the deepest wall
Of my soul...
So as every try to love another
Goes in vain...
The tied and trapped
Lovers aren't we...
Lost like the treasures of great kings,
We lost each other; treasures in itself.
Be it your fault or mine..
In the end we wandered.
Exactly what the universe wanted..
We should have battled..
Waged a war with the imbecile universe..
How dare it'd attempt to bring this on one soul..
My soul..
Why did we let it get to us?

Should I change my name..
Or hide yours from everyone..
How can I?
Everytime I bleed, I still bleed you..
The darkness dwells and the cold moon
Teases every time I try and leave..
I am caught with you somewhere..
There is no freeing from this emotion..
One scratch on you ever..
I'd still destroy everything that breathes..

Lost aren't we to all..
There is nowhere to go now.
There is no in between.
Only till this soul leaves the bone and flesh..
You said we aren't together this lifetime,
But in all the others after, I'd be yours..
Take me love.. Take me to this other lifetime..
And this time tie your soul to mine...
So the universe knows there are no two..
Next lifetime I'd be waiting..
And dare you'd escape..
I didn't burn the world this time..
But I'd burn the universe then...

Wednesday, March 14, 2018


The trivial emotions ransacked
With burden not so great.
I have seen people with bigger disasters.
There is no coming back home this year.

I'd pass the gates and glare through windows out the house.
Love I'd feel but no more.
Regardless of the attachment
Who'd thought I'd abandon my own.

Reckless, unforgiving and heartless
The bitch I can be.
Choosing between love and relationship.
Nothing prevails.
Only sins and forever guilts.
No matter the choice
The damage will be forever.
I'd be this unsettled soul
Forever asking for forgiveness.

Saturday, March 10, 2018

Q & A

What's your biggest fear? He asked.
Encroachment, I said.
The fear that slowly someone will
take over my life and I will loose myself again.

What you resent the most? He asked.
Dependence, I said.
I resent the thought that I'd not be able to look after myself. Not financially dear. I meant emotionally.

What's your biggest regret? He asked .
Year's ago I didn't ask someone what exactly went wrong. Not that we'd be together. But to acknowledge the other side of this failed story.

What do you despise? He asked.
Attachment, I said.
Nothing good comes out of it. Every person for themselves. People are just companions for the journey called life.

What is your biggest asset? He asked.
Oh a few I have I said.
Perseverance, empathy and patience.
Perseverance cause I never give up. That comes when you believe you are not perfect, and you make mistakes and the fact that you still believe in yourself despite those mistakes.
Empathy as I know I have to give back to the world what it has given me.
Patience as nothing comes easily. Nor money, fame, success, relationships and neither mental peace.

What do you love? He asked.
Me, I said.

Tuesday, February 27, 2018


Precious unpredictable life they say,
Living, awake and breathing I say ,
Where is your soul they ask,
Lost trying to live I say..
Lost trying to stay awake I say..
Lost trying to breathe I say...

Millions of life I see
How many carry their souls in harmony I ask,
A few they say,
So why did the millions loose it I ask,
We have no answer they say.

I say; No one understands no one...
We loose it all in the end..
Neither the blood relations help
Nor the ones made by choice..
The journey sour or sweet
In a trillion years won't matter..
So why the fuss you make, I ask
To make your tomorrow safe, they say

I laugh, What tomorrow..
I know no tomorrow..
Let me Breathe please just for today..
Let me find my soul I beg..
Life takes a toll
And ultimately we loose..
Please let me loose with dignity..
I say,
You can't, they say..
Why? I ask.
Cause we gave you life they say.

I stare at the absurdity.
Lost I have my soul Yes
But now I loose my life too..
Precious unpredictable as it is..
Goodbye I say to all...

Monday, February 19, 2018

Let me cry

Passing by life with the speed of light,
Flashes of past and present
Intertwined with confusion.
I have fought these battles head on,
And now the scars burn away day in and day out.
For now let me cry all my silent tears..

Let me drown into the turmoil
Of destruction..
Waging a war with myself
Be defeated and smothered
By my own hands
To loose not to others
But myself...
For now let me cry a thousand tears...

There is no black and white
There is no right and wrong
All that prevails are circumstances
And your own zones of Grey..
For now let me cry and cry
and cry my soul out...
Let me cry my silent repressed tears...

Friday, December 22, 2017

You miss me... I get that....

You miss me...
I get that...
From your small texts,
From your random how are you...

I know for a fact,
You try to search for me in her..
to connect with me in her..
And disappointment is all you receive...
I get that..

You feel empty..
You try to find that bit of soul
That would bring you the happiness
You felt when you were with me...
I get that....

You miss me...
I get that....
From all you do knowingly
Souls once connected,
Carry their RUST forever...
To find new partners
But never the connection...

Us; you and me
We are different..
I let go of past long back
And accepted the future..
You let go of present before
And now are stuck in past...
Hoping your present
Carries a ounce of peace
What your past had... 

You wish you could undo
My hatred
You wish you could turn time
To undo what you made wrong..
All cause you didn't know then
What you'd get would
Not even be close to what you had..

You miss me..
I get that..
I really do...
But there is nothing either
One of us can do about it...

Wednesday, December 20, 2017

Random thought- haiku

I saw you today
In broken hearts ,
Crooked smiles
And rusty petals......

Tuesday, December 5, 2017

Random thought

Love is just so simple.
People have this idea of how love is,
And complicate it.

Thursday, November 30, 2017

Over a period of time

And may be over a period of time
I will be able to make peace.
The longing of solitude will be
Replaced by a will to be together.

May be over a period of time
I will be able to crack my doubts
The self loathing will be
Replaced by self confidence.

May be over a period of time
I will be able to see,
The fiction over confused scenarios
Replaced by healthy truths.

May be over a period of time
I will be able to be content.
The constant urge prove myself
Replaced by accepting come what may.

May be over a period of time
I will be able to stop for a while.
The need to always go somewhere
The need to always do something
The need to constantly make a difference
The need to do it at one go
The need to not be a failure
The need to be doing it all
Replaced by just the need to be....
Be happy
Be average
Be healthy
Be living

Tuesday, November 21, 2017

Unexpected Rains...

Rains..  He said..  I love rains...
Me a bundle of joy then
Joined his conquest...
We found ourselves a garden
We found ourselves a bench..
Soaking wet..  He held my hand
And He said I love rains...
Shivering and cold I replied
I love them if you love them..
We sat there listening to
Chatter of tiny rain drops...
Silent as we were
He always taught me to love nature..
We found a puddle
A Cliche -  yes we both jumped in it
Like toddlers...
He said again I love Rains...
And I smiled..  I said
I love them if you love them..
He held my cold body and spoke
'Then may be you should love yourself too'...
I smiled again.. 
The first Indirect I love you..
I blushed for days to come...
It was a beautiful day..
And till today I for a brief second
I Love these unexpected rains..
They remind me of simpler times,
Innocent love...
The Rains...  I no more adore them...
But everytime they sprinkle unexpectedly
I flash back to this  sweet moment ..
Some memories crash back
The garden...  The rains..  The puddle..
And you.